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I talked to my ex-wife last night.
It was a long conversation.
It was the most satisfying talk we've ever had.
And I mean ever, the entire time I knew her.
I learned things I didn't know.
I got explanations I never heard.
I think it really helped me.
Some things finally made sense.
Things that never made sense to me.
Things that had really bugged me.
I came away from it with a better understanding of her.
I think I know her better now than I ever had before.
Better than when we dated.
Better than when we were married.
I have been through a wide range of emotion here.
Shock, anger, intrigue, happiness, all of them.
They are there in my pictures.
For fucks sake, look at the first page of this project.
The searing emotion of the first month.
Hell, it was called "The Anguish Project".
It is all written there on the pages.
But this emotion never came up.
Not in the three and a half years of this.
Not until now had this one raised itself.
And it took until today to feel it.
And what was this emotion?
It was simply pity, and it was for her.

So there it is, written on the page.
That is what the whole project comes down to.
Something I never thought I would feel in this.
Something I never thought I would feel for her.
What a strange thing to feel for your ex.
And what a weird ride this has all been.
I can't believe I did this whole project.
It started right on the day she asked for the divorce.
I will finish this project this year.
I'll wrap it up with something cool.
I'll make sure it goes full circle.
Just like I have during it.
And then I'll start a new project.
I'll probably wander with some themes or something.
But this one has done everything I needed it to.
And I am grateful to myself for having done it.