I’ve shot several pictures of this subject in my PAD days yet still every time I look at them I feel the need to photograph them again. This shot feels almost womb-like to me and I suppose as it’s a shot of seeds then that’s not too far a step for the imagination.

Today I’ve been to the doc, discussed the splitting headaches as well as general well-being and he says that he can see I’ve made some tiny improvements and that’s all that’s required of me – a small step to build on. He says the main thing I need is time to heal. It can’t be done in a day or even in several days. To be honest, that’s not really much different a view to that of my friend who went through a similar experience a year ago. Her description of her own recovery resonated with me very strongly.

I suppose I’m reassured by all of that. I recognise the need for a change in my attitude. Instead of always saying “OK – of course I will” no matter what the personal consequences, sometimes I will have to say “I’m sorry, while I’d love to help, on this occasion, I simply can’t”.

That’s going to be really tough for someone whose middle name is “can do”.

My friend said to me that she felt I was still fighting myself too much. She may well be right.

Last year, I was being pampered by DM - he is my hero.....