I’ve been feeling ‘murky’ since Christmas – not really disgustingly ill, just a degree or so under the weather. Tired, tearful, spotty and generally off-colour.

There have been a number of theories put forward by me, my family and friends. My symptoms could be related to any one of a dozen or so illnesses and as I’m no doctor, I’ve not been able to put my finger on what’s wrong.

So, after a lot of nagging from a number of quarters, I’ve been to see the doc today – he’s listened to my symptoms and decided that he needs some of my blood to ‘rule out’ some of the possible things. That’s my next stop – a practice nurse is going to stick a needle in me and take enough of it for them to analyse then I have to go back to the doc again for a diagnosis.

This makes me feel decidedly blue – I don’t like feeling ‘under par’ and I don’t like the ‘me’ who has emerged from under a stone, leaving the old me deflated in a corner.

I had my work computer switched off this evening only half-an-hour part my allotted time and went into the studio thinking ‘I’ll just run off a shot so I can do my PAD then curl up on the sofa in front of the telly for the evening’……that’s so not like me in any sense of the word.

I took some shots then, when I loaded them onto my PC I got angry with myself – come on Linda, there’s no need to wallow in this – you don’t have to BE second rate just because you’re feeling second rate.

So, I went back and shot this. I’d like to think that despite my lack of well-ness, my spirit isn’t entirely broken…….and this photo is hotter stuff than me.

Kiwi fruit flowers were my pic last year.