Just there now.

OK, I did it.
As anyone who has been following this project knows,
things got much better recently.
I am doing MUCH better.
This picture is a sign of that.
That is MY desk in MY office.
It has been disassembled since she took over that space.
I have been working in the loft or on my laptop since she left.
This morning when I woke up, I started rearranging the closets.
Tonight when I got home from work, I started setting up my office.
Yup, it took six months for that space to no longer be hers.
It has just been an empty room.
Sure, I have been working out in there, but it has been empty, just like my heart.
Everything is different now. Everything is new (ok, not the desk).
By new, I mean new inside me. Nothing in the outside world is different.
It has been the same for six months.
Now, well like I said, everything is different.

Oh, and yesterday I promised a story today.
So, yesterday I had to fly to Baltimore.
The flight was early in the morning and I overslept a bit.
I rushed to the airport and just made my flight.
Jumped on the plane and took right off.
About a half hour into the flight, I started thinking some things.
I was just staring out the window and I started thinking
about a fight we had over a year ago.
All of a sudden, I just busted out laughing at it.
It is amazing to me how much perspective I have after 6 months.
I should have explained that it was unacceptable then.
I didn't. Heck, knowing her,
she probably would have left me then if I had stood up to it.
Well, she ended up leaving anyways.
I never got over that fight with her.
She was bullying me.
If I was to think about it,
she bullied me into a lot of things.

The best part about all this is getting to see who I am becoming.
Life has new flavor. There are lots of things I want to do now.
There are lots of places I want to go now.
There are lots of things I want to see.
One thing I see is my desk in my office :-)




If you thought the nude photo of me was exposing, try this one on for size:



I'm glad she left.



There, I said it.
Everyone can see it now.
No hiding it.
Heck, even SHE can read it now.
If your stunned to read it,
think how I feel writing it.
Six months ago I was destroyed.
Now, I am overjoyed.
Amazing how the world works sometimes.