Important Day? Not for me.

There is a strange feeling in divorce.
Well, not really divorce, but the aftermath.
There is all kinds of processing that goes on.
What you could have done differently.
What your mate could have done different.
After a while though, you simply look back.
Reflecting on the stuff that caused it.
As you are in it, it is so hard to look at.
There is just so much pain and anguish.
But as the years go by, you look again.
And in the looking you find little nuggets.
Such as the one I found today.
I came across it just thinking.
It was one I already knew, but not like this.
My ex had taken away all the right answers.
As she would push and prod and force, choice died.
When there was a choice, she made both options wrong.
So my reaction was just not to make a choice.
Sure, at first I tried really hard to pick the right one.
I would choose A, but the answer was actually B.
Later in the same situation, I would choose B.
Come to find out the answer was now A.
The next time I would try to choose both.
You guessed it, that time both were wrong.
That or (her favorite), both were mutually exclusive.
And yet she would demand both be right.
So in the end, I would just stand still.
I became very rigid in my standing still.
I knew all answers to be wrong at that point.
A forced choice then was just useless.
So again, I chose to just not answer.
In the end, I think that was our biggest issue.
Me no longer willing to make the wrong decision.
Her mad because I would not make a decision.
So any way I went, she ended up dissatisfied.
When you take away all good options like that its hard.
Just slowly gnawing away at everything.
And it just kept shifting all the time.
Things that were horrible became wanted.
Thing that were wanted became horrible.
And the next week those answers would shift again.
I would call that a no win situation.
And the only win was for the situation to end.
And so it did 2.5 years ago.

Why is this all coming up now?
Because this was a very important day for her.
I know that because I usually remember things like that.
And I was really thinking about it this weekend.
However, it is an important day for her, not me.
For me, it is Tuesday, and really that is all.
The run around in my head with this was just junk.
Leftover crap to be studied and analyzed.
Happy Tuesday everyone.