Unpublished images...

I had always debated putting this photo here.
I took it one year ago this morning.
It was at dawn on the morning of divorce court.
I was never happy about this picture though.
Obviously I don't like the way I look.
More important though I did not like the way I felt.
A few hours after this I was to be in court.
I was to stand before a judge and get it done.
Shockingly my ex was on time for court.
It took a couple hours, but mostly that was just waiting.
All the arguing was done and signed before this day.
If I could go back in time I would actually not do it.
There is nothing I could say to myself that would change things.
I would not take the sting off that day in the least.
What actually happened was that I set off on an adventure.
That adventure led to the best year of my life.
Sure, there was a lot of pain wrapped into it as well.
But they are just part of the package in life sometimes.
You can not buy the feeling of freedom and relief in a store.
They can only come from within your own guts.
Once you find them in there, they are just good.
So this is a picture of a bitter man from one year ago.
Today I am just a happy guy with life to live.
Her leaving me was the best thing that could have happened.
I feel a bit sad looking at this picture though.
Ok fine, if I could go back in time I would give me a hug.
Even though I would not have been able to return it back then.

Reflections can be interesting things sometimes.
I mean it was only 525,600 minutes ago.
Yet to me, it was a lifetime ago.