Back on the subject of simple pleasures, I’m in a great mood tonight, with the close of the two day meeting that has been giving me grief now well behind me and someone else taking care of chi squared tests again for me! I’m so glad I have techies in my team because if I didn’t, I may have to learn this stuff for myself and I can’t bear the thought of that. I’m definitely the sort of person who has to see a need to want to learn something new.

I was on my way home, with spirits rapidly rising and this image came into my mind. For me it’s not just obviously a kiss (but without seeing any of the action) but it’s also a display of complete trust through vulnerability.

How?

Well – partly balance – one is less secure when on tip-toe so easy to be destabilised. It’s also confidence that toes won’t get trodden on either by accident or design. You could even regard the simple fact of my feet being naked and DMs fully clothed as it were as being symbolic of allowing myself to be totally exposed whereas he’s not. Even then, if something were to happen, he’d be ready to run and I wouldn’t be so able without shoes.

So, here is my shot. I’ve seen many ‘look we’re a couple’ shots with clasped hands and similar devices but I don’t believe I’ve ever seen this approach to the subject matter, though the sentiments are largely the same. Maybe not though, maybe this is the demonstration of an unequal relationship, whereas clasped hands are the symbolisation of an equal one? Nah – it could just as easily have been constructed the other way around. I could be in my work heels and DM could be naked (well of foot anyway). Well, now there’s a thought…….(and it’s not of naked feet!)

Trust is a weird thing really isn’t it? When you think about it you place trust in someone or something that could potentially be to your own detriment. We all do it. Hopefully for most, the outcome of placing that trust is a positive one though I’m sure we all can think of examples when trust is misplaced, either because of an unknown factor or even abused wantonly by someone undeserving of that trust.

Trust has been a feature of my day today in more than one way, for sixteen months now, this special project team that I have been a part of has been learning to trust one another. I think it’d be fair to say we do now feel that we’ve accomplished it. That’s a fairly monumental achievement when we’ve all got such different backgrounds and personal goals. I’ve loved and hated every minute of the process all at the same time. BUT this trust is a really GOOD thing.

It’s also something I see in the dogs – they really do demonstrate total trust and in them you get the benefit of it being absolutely unconditional and never changing. I always say that dogs are probably better companions than children because at least they never grow up hating you like so many children seem to.

Finally, it’s David – he’s the subject of the pic. He trusts me totally and likewise I trust him. I’m so looking forward to a night without anyone else here, without any distractions or working late or fretting about going away (I’m determined to leave that one until the weekend).

Trust may not spawn affection (though without both I fail to see how a relationship can work long-term) but it is nonetheless an integral part of our lives together. It was a prerequisite for me. I was (and still am) determined that I won’t ever get myself back into a situation where a man betrays my trust again so DM is under strict instructions that if he tires of me or meets someone else then he has to walk away quickly and never look back. That is the only way my fragile heart can cope. Short sharp shock is the only way to deal with that stuff. He’s not tired though……so I can breathe a sigh of relief and look forward to tomorrow with confidence.

Wow - is it really two years since the hole in my kitchen wall was knocked out? Boy - a year ago - this really was my finest hour!