They’ve all been telling me for months to stop. DM has even tried to hide my stuff a few times, including my passport the night before I had to go to Germany for a meeting. None of that helped really – it just made me more stressed.

I know it’s all been with the best of intentions and with my well-being at heart but I’ve not felt able to listen or to take advice.

So, now I find myself forced to listen and forced to take advice. That is, I suppose, a good thing although it doesn’t feel like it.

The next thing is to try to make my whole being better so I have promised myself that I will try to get my hearing sorted out properly now. I’ve got time off so I can persevere, rather than going to the doc once then giving up when he hasn’t helped. I don’t have to feel I have no time to follow things through. If I get to Christmas and can hear properly, I’ll regard it as a good result. I’m also going to get my eyes tested for good measure – if I’m going to look after myself for a change, I may as well do it properly!

I am sorry - I know I've posted this out of sequence but i somehow managed to get myself in a muddle - now I think that says it all really. I don't get into muddles.

Last year, I was making a mess!