This is Chloe!!! My cousin John and his wife had their second baby! She's a month old!!! It seems like
all my pics are of babies now! Hehe, I guess ti's the season! They had the usual one month gathering!
And it was pretty much like a baby expo!!! So many babies!

I went back in time to and found a back-up cd with a lot of my Word files in it, and they contain a
lot of my old writings, as I read them... I felt like I was reading another person's writing! It was
filled with so much emotion, I didn't hold anything back, it was blunt and real, and as I read it
I was truly wondering if I had really wrote that, and I kept thinking... how come I can't write like
that no more, where did it go? I wrote with much feeling, passion and it was truly interesting to
read. Not this fucking bullshit that I write now a days. But upon this realization, I'm scared for
myself, scared that it's too late, that I'll never get it back, I've become too old, too cynical,
too dry, too used up, that living for the moment was too along ago a moment, that living for
whatever the reason was lost to me. I'm afraid, scared of not being able to write, express or worst
yet...to feel....yes, that's what I'm most fearful of... not being able to feel... please give it
back.