Symmetry

This was just so odd.
I can tell you that you have
not seen a picture from before
my wife left me for a LONG time.
I keep those locked away.
It is like a totally different life.
So here I am showing you one.
The one on the left was my
photo of the day for May 3rd 2007.
It was the last photo of the day
before my wife said she was leaving me.
So why am I showing it?
Well I was walking through my kitchen
just going to make some lunch
when I saw the bug on the right side.
For a moment I thought to myself
"What a shame, where is your mate?"
It was then that it hit me.
If there was ever a demonstration
of juxtaposition, this was it.
Exactly one year and one day later.
I RAN up the stairs to grab a camera.
As I was running I was thinking
wondering if this was exactly a
year since the old one (so close).
I wonder if the universe is watching.
I wonder if that bug knew which door to land on.
I wonder if my ex-wife remembers the exact
moment I took the one on the left as well as I do.
She was sitting 8 feet from me when I did it.
Did she know she was about to do all this?
Did she know that it would turn out like this.
Was this the game plan she had in her head?
Did she know I would end up hating her.

Well here are my guesses:
She knew she was going to do this while sitting there that day.
It did not go as she planned.
She did not know I would hate her a year later, but she knows it now.

It is kind of funny how life shows you lessons.
After I took the picture on the right today
I thought about what would happen different
if I could have gone back one year and one day and
talked to the Dave standing at the exact same spot.
Would I have even told him?
Would he have understood?
I am not sure I would have said anything.
In fact I now hope I would not.
I would not want to give up this last year for anything.
I know it sounds like lemonade from lemons,
but it is even more than that.
I have seen so much, and learned so much.
I could never go back to being the man
that was standing at that doorway one year and one day ago.
And even if I could, I would not want to.