Consistency

This entry will be all over the map.
I would call the last 27 hours interesting.
I think parts of it have been
building for more than 11 months.
Hell, maybe some parts for 45 years.
Some of them just a decade.
It all reached a crossroad yesterday.
I wish I had reached it 6 months ago.
But alas, time is there for a reason.
You can not force learning, it just happens.
The lesson comes when the student is ready.
It seems I was ready yesterday.
Each time I gnaw through something
I think it is finally done.
Then I find there is another
part sitting right under it.
Well as long as you can hold
true to yourself and keep going,
then you reach times like now.
All of a sudden you look up from
the work you have been doing,
and the entire world looks different.
Some things just make sense.
And unfortunately, some do not.
It is the ones that do not that this
entry is really speaking about.
The ones that, after the veil is gone
become so fucking stupid it is amazing.
All of a sudden I left some consistency behind.
I stood up and said enough is enough.
I all of a sudden realized that it was
not an outside force that was preventing this.
It was all inside, and all in my control.
You want to fuck with me now bitch?

I'm thinking it would be best to
take the "just walk away" deal I offered.

(not that I am giving you advice)
(both ways are fine with me)
(I win either way, so no BFD)