Speaking of summer...

So how do I write this one without anger?
I was more amused than angry getting it.
It just came in the mail.
I opened the mailbox and there it was.
Is the middle finger anger or defiance?
Is it a combination of both emotions?
I think it is just defiance more than anything.
It is saying "Hey, I'm not forced to do this".
I do not need to rent a house that sleeps 20.
My ex demanded crazy vacations.
She had no real sense of them.
I don't think she enjoyed them that much.
I'm really not sure she enjoyed anything that much.
I know that I didn't enjoy them much at all.
Well I guess I am actually happy at getting this now.
It reminds me that I have found my voice.
It reminds me that I would not do things the same.
It reminds me how different I am today.
It reminds me how happy life is now.
Just writing it out made me feel good.
Just checking in with myself.
Go about your business.
Nothing to see here but some guy processing.