Will you count me in?

I've been awake for a while now
you've got me feelin like a child now
cause every time I see you bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place.
-Colbie Callait

There are lots of things I don't know in this world.
I didn't know that I could feel like a 14 year old.
It seems crazy to say it out loud but that is how I felt.
Like I was in junior high or something.
A kid asking someone out for the first time.
I am surprised that was going on within me.
We all know that I am a bit jaded about some things.
And yet here I go being vulnerable.

And now a little note to the person that caused all this:
If you find this site, well let me tell you a couple things
Reading my blog is like drinking from a fire hose.
Even more than the letters I have sent you.
Every bit of this blog is one sided and just guts on the floor.
Mine is the only viewpoint I use here to write.
Sometimes it is nice and pleasant and fun.
Other times it provides me for an outlet of anger.
A whole host of human emotions is here in pictures and words.
Sometimes they have hidden meanings only I know.
Other times what I am feeling screams from the page.
If you read it, read it with understanding that I am human.
I am not one single entry in this blog, I am them all.
It would be dishonest of me to go back and edit them.
Sometimes I add to old entries but I NEVER take away from them.
I actually use this blog to mark time for myself.
For instance this picture on this page right here.
The camera shutter was open for just a 60th of a second.
And in that instant it froze what I was thinking at that moment.
Years from now I could look at this picture and remember that.
I can see it in my eyes and I know it in my mind.
That moment is now frozen forever for me.
You may find things you don't like or agree with here.
It is what it is though and it is important to me.

UPDATE - 10-22-08, and sometimes I am a bag full of monkey wrenches.