I can see that you enjoy life.....and that's all what counts...we live now...so why wait to do things later.....everyday is a gift...because I know how it is, I lost my brother in more than 4 years 21 August 2000...I was with him till the last breath....to young he was just 42...he left a youg wife 36 and 2 kids 11 and 9 and that time....I still miss him badly.....and now I see all with other eyes and do things what others never thought I would do that........I enjoy everyday......because what today is, can be end tomorrow