Pose for me I said…….

Hmmm – still I suppose it is a good reminder for me for the next few days of how life is at home. Rosie all mad and trying to charge around, Archie desperately trying to be seen as good by refusing point blank to look at either me or DM and David trying to maintain some sort of order.

I go off to the States in a few minutes and I leave this lot behind again. They’re fretting about me – I can barely draw breath this morning with my persistent ‘stress cough’ causing me no end of trouble. Archie is mooching looking miserable, Rosie is skittish and DM is furious with me for making myself so ill through overwork and anxiety about failing because I can’t keep all the balls in the air and some crash to the ground around me – I have another of those happening to me today. I’m letting down a colleague who has asked me to write a proposal and I just can’t do it and I can’t hand it over to anyone else. So I let down my colleague, my boss and myself (yet again).

So I’m fretting about DM and co, fretting about me. I don't want to go away with him cross with me but I can't think how to stop that. It’s a vicious circle.

I’ve been in constant whinge mode recently – sorry – I will find my way out of this hole sooner or later – hopefully sooner.