Day 6 of the Anguish project

I wonder what I will feel when I
look back on these pictures.
Will I remember what I was
feeling when I took them?
Will this hurt I feel be there?
Will I feel as broken as I do today?
It is odd that the first real
question about my future was
how will I look at my past.
Friends are telling me that "it will hurt less".
Funny, but for some reason, that doesn't help right now.

"But it don't really matter,
Life gets that much harder,
It makes you that much stronger,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were,
Lessons learned".
-Carrie Underwood

Update from day 299 of the Anguish project:
Q: Will I remember what I was feeling when I took them?
A: You bet, every one of them.

Q: Will this hurt I feel be there?
A: No, it is a completely different feeling

Q: Will I feel as broken as I do today?
A: Not even close.

Have you ever heard the country song "Letter to me"?
Well that is what this update is.
It has been 299 days since this all started.
I must sat that the perspective I have now is different.
Not only will you be fine, but you will thrive.
There are a lot of hard times ahead that you will deal with.
However, there is also a joyous reward.
There is peace here and you will find it.
All of the pain and anguish will drift away.
An interesting part is that you will not miss her.
You will understand the anger you can't yet express.
I remember the exact feeling I had taking this picture,
and although I can still touch it, and it is still there,
it no longer holds me in its grasp.
Keep your chin up and ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS remember,
"Do not be who you are not".
This pain actually does pass.