Hi Anna, you and your flowers you create in your mind.
In actual life , more than in photography , there are a critical, sometimes dramatic lag between what we see in your mind and what actually is . The very clever Machiavelli, teaching his Prince call his attention for that fact, things are what they are and not as we want them to be , in my free translation. Looking at your Floral visions I know you are pretty close to create flowers like you them in your mind.
Ciao
jorge